Using Instagram was never my goal. I’m a very jealous person who used to compare myself to everyone and everything. At that moment, Instagram wouldn’t have been a healthy platform for me.
The flood of pictures and videos would have made me sick. After about a year, I decided to give it a try. I was only convinced of my goal to become an influencer the moment I uploaded a picture and saw that people liked it.
I figured I could make myself heard after winning over enough people with my looks. For example, I deliberately follow only a few people. Why? Because, on the one hand, I don’t want to see people who are beautiful and perfect (in my eyes) every day, which would only make me feel more insecure. On the other hand, I don’t want to be reminded daily of all the talented individuals out there as opposed to me, who feels less so.
The Famous Green Dress!
I borrowed this dress from a friend for a wedding on July 21, 2019. I just wanted to feel beautiful again. My boyfriend, my best friend, my sister, and I were at the B&B hotel. This picture was taken in the hotel hallway. It was one of my most beautiful evenings, and you can see that in the picture (apparently). I was happy all around and satisfied with myself and my figure. After the wedding, I decided to post this picture on Instagram. I didn’t expect so much love.
I received over 3,000 likes in a short time. It tingled my interests and made me curious to post more pictures. I wanted to see if I could reach more people on Instagram in general. I then removed several pictures and left only the best ones (in my opinion).
I asked an acquaintance for advice on how I could get more followers since I was (and still am) talentless (again, my opinion). One of my best friends compared me and my sister in a conversation and said that I do nothing (in the sense that I don’t sing or dance).
That statement offended me, of course. As I mentioned above, I think/ thought that I was (and am) talentless. However, that very same statement also strengthened me, motivated me, and reminded me that I can do and am something even if I don’t sing or dance.
