Before I open the doors fully to May, I need to take a moment to say goodbye to April. And not just a casual goodbye, but a heartfelt one. April 2025 was the month. A month filled with reflection, revelation, transformation, and grace. A month I will never forget. It challenged me deeply, brought up so many unresolved things I couldn’t solve or let go of for a long time. And yet, somehow, God made a way. He didn’t just hand me the solutions; He walked me through them. And for that, I am more than thankful.
April taught me something powerful: that consistency and self-love are the real game changers. That if I truly put myself first, life will respond with alignment. The last two weeks of April, especially, felt like a warm introduction into May a smooth transition filled with light, clarity, and love. That’s the energy May began with, and that’s the energy I want to carry through.
It’s not even about receiving exactly what I wanted. It’s about how I received it and what I learned through the waiting. Have you ever wanted something so badly not just for weeks or months, but for years? And nothing seemed to work. No matter what you tried, it didn’t come. But deep inside, you knew God had heard you. You knew He knew the desire in your heart. For me, it wasn’t just about getting a thing it was about experiencing a transformation, a second chance, and finally being seen. Not by others, but by myself.
That’s the hidden beauty: the moment I saw myself clearly again. The moment I loved myself without needing permission. That love began to reflect in everything my thoughts, my space, my energy. I renewed my room, and with it, my soul. I sat at home, meditating on who I want to become and what my life should look like. I realized that my surroundings mirror my inner world. And so I cleaned. I rearranged. I made space. Physically and spiritually.
I stopped fearing mistakes. I used to believe that once I messed up, it was written in stone unchangeable. But now I know, nothing is final. We can always rewrite. We can always shift. And May is my month of shifting. From my home to my clothes to how I show up in the world this is a full transformation. Not because I was broken, but because I know there’s so much more beauty and power inside of me still waiting to be expressed.
But I won’t lie getting here wasn’t easy. Many don’t know, but my dear uncle passed away in February. He was more than family he was joy, he was light, he was wisdom. His passing knocked me off balance. I tried to keep going in March, to pretend everything was okay. But emotionally, I was out of place. Lost. He inspired me with the way he spread joy, even with little. And now, I hold that joy as my inheritance. I let go of the pain, but I keep his light. I carry him with me as I walk forward.
That’s why May is so important. It’s about finding the hidden beauty. In me. In life. In all things. I saw a video of a girl saying she just wanted to be “pretty.” People thought it was superficial. But she explained: “Pretty kind. Pretty strong. Pretty close to God. Pretty honest.” That’s exactly what I mean. That’s my real goal. I want to be pretty everything in the sense of becoming the most whole, loving, grounded version of myself.
I’ve realized that the more I love myself, the more love I have to give. So many of us walk around with unhealed wounds, unspoken emotions, and hidden anger. And we project it often onto people who have nothing to do with our pain. And that keeps us stuck. That blocks us from living our purpose.
But not anymore. I’m done counting time, regretting years, and wishing things were different. I’m embracing every moment now. Because no matter what comes my way, I know there’s always a way through it. Whether it’s with support, guidance, or simply God making a path I know I’m never alone. Some things, yes, we just have to let go. Not everything needs fixing. Some things need surrender. Sometimes the best thing to do is go home, rest, pray, and trust.
So here’s to May. To renewal. To love. To grace.
To seeing the hidden beauty in everything and becoming it.
